Mighty to Save
The LORD your God is in your midst,
a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness;
he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing
~ Zephaniah 3:17
I have no intentions of belaboring what happened next. Truth is, I was in a season of making horrible choices – relationship and otherwise. Nearly every decision I made was influenced by an escalating fear of being alone, especially at night, and I did not always choose the best company.
I was a registered nurse for an oncologist during the day and a student in the nurse practitioner program (before it was post-graduate) at Florida State University at night. Only because my friend Jerri offered to drive me to and from class did I dare go out after dark. One evening after class, when Jerri dropped me off at my apartment, I was accosted by a man with whom I had severed a relationship some weeks earlier – a man who had apparently been hiding in the bushes near the entrance to my apartment, waiting for me to come home. I can only imagine his intentions. What he did not realize was that Jerri was still in the parking lot. She witnessed his attack on me and came to my rescue.
At Jerri’s insistence, she drove me directly to the police department where charges were filed. For reasons that I either never knew or quickly forgot, the date for court was cancelled. Anxious to put the incident behind me, I dropped the matter and never pursued it. I never will. I was not interested in stirring a hornet’s nest, and it was all I could do to sleep at night without cowering under my bed.
Fear is too gentle a word for the terror that battled for my mind. It was a paralyzing terror that propelled me as I raced through stop signs and red lights without stopping and imprisoned me behind triple-locked doors.
To say that I am alive today is to proclaim the providential hand of God on my life. To realize my victory over fear and terror bears witness to the mighty power of God to redeem, to justify, to heal, to make new. To save.
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